Confessions of a church girl: Running from the call

Okay so I’m sure everyone has heard of the story of Jonah but just in case you haven’t I’m going to give you the short and sweet version of the story. God told Jonah that he wanted him to go to Nineveh and preach to the people there but Jonah told God that he didn’t want to preach to them and that he wanted them to die in their sin because they were the enemies of the land of Israel. And so as an act of rebellion Jonah gets on a ship and that’s going to a completely different city. And of course God saw him and he sent a bad storm and the men on the ship were throwing things overboard and praying that the storm would stop and the whole time Jonah is sleep. And one of the members on the boat asked why are you sleeping…get up and call on God so that maybe he could stop this storm. And the men realized that it was one of them that was causing the storm and so they “cast lots” which is like drawing sticks or flipping coins and of course it landed on Jonah and so he told them the whole story and basically said that if you throw me overboard the storm will stop and they tried to find a way around it but they couldn’t and so they through him overboard. And when the storm calmed down Jonah got swallowed up in the belly of a whale for 3 days and 3 nights and in that time he prayed to God and he was spit out on dry land and God told him again to go to Nineveh and tell them to them to turn from their sins or they will be detroyed in 40 days and this time Jonah went and the people of Nineveh turned from their sins and sought the lord.

Jonah knew that he was called for a special purpose by God but he did not want to follow Gods plan for him. This happens even now where God calls us and asks us to do his will and we grow fearful or we don’t want to do what God asks for whatever reason and so we run. We run from the call, we run from God. The crazy thing is that God is everywhere so there is no place that you can run that he can find, he is all knowing so there is nothing that you can do that he won’t already know.  So why run?  If I’m being honest I do it too? And it’s funny because I was watching a sermon by Sarah jakes and she literally spoke to all my reasons behind trying to run from God. People would call me special and Say that God created me to be different and things like that and I hated it. I hated it because I was afraid. Afraid that people wouldn’t like me because of the call on my life, afraid that I wasn’t good enough, that I would not be handle it and I didn’t think I had anything to offer anyone. I thought that because of the mistake I made I was undeserving but the thing about God is he sees beyond your flaws and mistakes and he sees the call. He sees what you are destined be not what you used to be. Honestly, I grew perfectly content with being present but not involved but God required more, he deserved more. I may not be where I should but at least I stopped running. So let me ask you again: why run? He’s calling you, so why not answer? ❤