So, first of all let me just say how much I’ve missed posting on my blog, but life has kept me literally so busy. However, since I’ve been away I have had a few revelations about myself. Since relocating for school I’ve found myself being presented with opportunities to involve myself with different Christian activities and things and some of them are things that are outside of my comfort zone. However, I’ve been having this desire to really step out on faith and serve God more and do for him and, I told myself that I am going develop a yes mentality. Basically, I prayed and told God that whatever he has for me to do, I will do because I don’t want him to miss out on him doing something great through me because of fear. However, there was still a slight problem. Although, I pushed myself to step out on faith and do more for him I was still holding myself back. I realized that I am so quick put my myself and my gifts and talents and abilities down when I feel like I am not good enough to do something or if I don’t feel qualified compared to other people that I doing it with. I also struggle with staying silent. I’ve gotten comfortable just hanging out in the background so when people try to push out in the front I shut down because it’s scary and uncomfortable. I could have so much to say and so many ideas but I just can’t bring myself to always just jump at the opportunity to speak out. I’ve never seen this as a problem until I left for school and made the choice to step up as a leader. I mean God gave me these gifts, and talents, and abilities but they don’t benefit people who I don’t share them with. For example I love writing poetry but who is going to benefit from them if I don’t share. I would love to get to a place where I am confident with knowledge that God has given me and the knowledge he is helping me gain to help other people but I know it takes time. We all have to remember that what God gives us is not for us but to help other people and draw other people to him. This definitely something that I will pray continuously about because I know that God placed me where I am for purpose but now I must make the choice to walk in it. I also must realize that God doesn’t always call the qualified he qualifies the called.
Also somewhere on this post I will attach a quote that my friend with me and some of our other friends. Love ♥️ and blessings 🙏🏾.